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Totally Not Copying My Partner's Sticky

I have very little idea of how to Dreamwidth, but supposedly a sticky post for an intro is best so... Hi? Please use this to introduce yourselves or ask me questions or so on and so forth.

I'm a history student at SFU now, a writer, converting to Judaism (which is going to probably be most of this blog) and I like cats and my hair and headcovering stuff which may also get some airtime here.

Fandom-wise, I'm mostly into Hetalia, Harry Potter, Terry Pratchett, Tamora Pierce, Anita Blake, Star Wars (by osmosis from my partner [personal profile] slashmarks), MCU movies, and a couple others I've gleaned bits and pieces of over the years. I like talking about fandom in general, so I can get started geeking on almost anything (I tried and failed to read Game of Thrones, but by word do I have opinions about it) and will happily listen to OTHER people's geeking about fandoms I don't currently know.

I have an AO3, several Tumblrs, and will happily give them when asked but am not posting them offhand.
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2018-04-28 06:52 pm
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My Jewish Books

I have a fairly extensive Jewish library now which impresses even me, to be honest. I didn’t imagine I’d acquire this many in so little time. Many came from my Jewish Information Class I had to take for my conversion through my Shul but many are my own choices too.

I’ve had people ask me for suggestions on what to read, for what purposes, and figured a list I can maintain and add to might be best. I’ll try to give it something resembling order but I can’t make any promises it will make sense.

Unless otherwise specified, the books are from a Reform or interdisciplinary perspective. Many are from Jewish Lights Publishing house.

 

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Books About Conversion:

I have two specifically about this, and given who usually asks about book reccomendations I might as well list them first.

Choosing a Jewish Life, by Anita Diamant is the one everyone gets suggested, and for good reason. It is a very good, very sympathetic overview of what to expect, the common reasons people convert, and how to handle expectations. This was a required text for my JIC class (which is not to imply it will be required for all!) I have completely read this book.

Embracing the Covenant, by Rabbi Allan L. Berkowitz & Patti Moskovitz was a book given to me by my Rabbi when I first asked to speak to him about my interest in converting. It’s mostly in essays and brief anecdotes from actual converts about why, when, and where they are now. It’s a good book for those who are curious, I’m not sure of its utility if you’re further along the path. It didn’t come up again in the JIC. I have completely read this book.

 

Books about Jewish History:

I also have two about this, although I may dig through my wife’s shelves and add a library book I have out once I’ve analyzed them more for merit.

A Short History of the Jewish People, by Raymond P. Scheindlin was a JIC required text. It’s a surprisingly good history book that matches up well with actual academic sources I know about the periods of time it covers, which was a concern I had coming from a Christian religion with a heavy dose of apologism. It’s in accessible language and is small enough to carry around with you (or conceal, if need be.) I did not quite finish reading through this book.

The Way into the Varieties of Jewishness, by Sylvia Barack Fishman was both a JIC required text and one I was given when I first approached my Rabbi. It focuses on the history of the developments of 19th and 20th century Rabbinic Judaism and I think it does a very good job going over incentives and changes over time. I haven’t reread it in a while but I know I enjoyed it when I did. I have completely read this book.

Others will probably be added over time, but I’m not up to digging up my academic sources not directly in front of me right now.

 

Books on Jewish Holidays:

I have four books on this and half are personal selections, although their utility to others is uncertain.

Gates of Shabbat, by CCAR, edited by Rabbi Mark Dov Shapiro is a fairly simple and straight-forward book about, effectively, how to practice Shabbat and make it meaningful in a Reform context when the rules are not rigid guidelines telling you what you “should” do, but suggestions about what makes Shabbat different from all other nights. This was required reading by the JIC, and I keep it accessible for when I need to recite the blessings. Honestly I should probably read it cover to cover again.

Mishkan Moed: A Guide to the Jewish Seasons, by CCAR, edited by Rabbi Peter S. Knobel is a holidays round-up of the cycle of the year. Including the small ones and the modern ones. I didn’t spend a ton of time pouring over it but that was mostly a result of distraction with schooling rather than anything else. It has very concise and easy to read summaries of the holiday history and mitzvoth, and ends with a series of essays on questions of observance and so on. It was a required JIC book and while it wasn’t my favourite, I think it’s a very valuable one to have.

Seasons of our Joy, by Arthur Waskow was a personal choice, one I picked up used. It’s a Jewish Renewal, New Age type book on the Jewish holidays. I don’t think I’ve read it through – I find some of it incredibly frustrating – but it’s a useful book to have for a different take on Jewish practice and one I’m going to renew my effort to read in detail again soon. I have not finished it completely before.

 

Too Good to Passover, by Jennifer Felicia Abadi is a personal choice, one I found online that is a collection of Sephardic recipes and anecdotes for, three guesses, Passover. I haven’t read it through yet – it’s not really that kind of book, it’s very thick – but I like Passover recipes because they’re the main kind of Jewish food I can make that’s safe for my allergies. I hope I find a lot of non-Passover uses for it and several Passover ones too.

 

Books on Jewish Practice:

This is mostly the kind of generic books. Often they have a ton of information collected together, but because they’re a huge variety I figure they should have a category of some kind going on.

JPS Hebrew-English Tanakh, by the Jewish Publication Society, which seems like a silly book to list but I consider the edition and so on of a book to matter to people. Obviously this is exactly what it sounds like – a two-column Tanakh, with Hebrew on the left and English on the right of a page that includes all of the religious books used in Judaism. The back pages include what the parshas are and what their haftarahs are (and, in parentheticals, what the Sephardi tradition ones are when different.) I really enjoy this edition because in many places it includes both alternate translations in the notes as well as ones where they go “Hebrew uncertain,” to admit the level of guesswork involved. This was a required text of the JIC, and no no I have not read it through yet. One day.

Mishkan T’filah: A Reform Siddur, by CCAR, edited by Elyse D. Frishman, this was also a required JIC text and it is my baby and I love it to pieces. I have the complete edition – weekdays, Shabbat, holidays, etc. It includes multiple “sets” of the prayers for morning, evening, Shabbat morning and evening, and a “Shabbat morning/evening II” section that is less literal and more flowing. It took me several months to learn how to use it properly but it was so very worth it for all the information it contains. It’s better laid out than an Artscroll Siddur, IMO, in terms of being user-friendly for the uninitiated, but truly any siddur you buy you should invest the time to sit and read through it without trying to use it until you know what parts it is you need.

Please note that a siddur is not a cheap book. My siddur sells, used, on Amazon, for 132$ CAD. The comparative Artscroll siddur – festivals, Shabbat, AND weekday prayers – is about the same price. These are not insignificant purchases, so wait and see what you really want from a book before you decide. If I had not gotten this as part of my class, I would not own a complete version at this point in my life.

Essential Judaism, by George Robinson was a required JIC book and is a catch-all book about Jewish life, holidays, philosophers, history, and movements. It’s a Jewish life encyclopedia; if you want one book to cover almost all your bases, this is the one to get. I appreciate it immensely as it includes the most human aspects of Judaism that I value so much – the section on fasting on Yom Kippur includes a purported quote from a famous 19th century Rabbi, Hayim Soloveitchik, on why he was so “lenient” about letting sick people eat and drink on Yom Kippur: “On the contrary – I am not lenient – I’m very strict when it comes to saving lives.” I feel that sums up what I love about the book, and Judaism, very well.

A Book of Life, by Rabbi Michael Strassfeld is a Jewish spirituality book I haven’t actually managed to read yet because I bought it and then put it in a box for a year. I finally refound it and may in fact move it into my personal library soon but I don’t have access to it at the moment to give much more of an opinion on it. From what I’ve read of it, though, it is somewhat similar to the Essential Judaism book but with more of an eye to suggestions for practice than encyclopedic record.

With the Jewish Child in Home and Synagogue, by Elma Ehrlich Levinger. This is listed not really as a recommendation but a kind of point of interest of things I’ve found in second hand stores. It’s a simple little cloth-bound children’s book about Jewish ritual and practice… given as a gift and signed June 12th, 1932. I got it before I started converting as a reference book with memory attached (my bonding happens a LOT to old books) but now it’s something I kind of treasure.


Jewish Feminism:

I had quite a stint on this for a while so I collected a few including by Orthodox Jewish Women

Yentl’s Revenge, edited by Danya Ruttenerg is a series of Essays on a variety of Jewish practices that’s from 2001. It’s an interesting mix of essays, one I haven’t read in a while but I remember I liked it a great deal when I did. I’d definitely suggest it to someone who is looking into how to be a modern, more reform oriented but not solely, Jewish feminist. I have read it completely just four or five years ago.

Standing Again at Sinai by Judith Plaskow is the Jewish Feminist text and I have not in fact managed to make myself read it yet. I intend to, but feminism is not my favourite subject in a general sense, only in specific ones.

Women and Jewish Law, by Rachel Biale is a technical book about Jewish legal practice. I started it and liked it, but haven’t managed to finish it as it is very dense. I do not regret having it, but I can’t comment on its utility at this time.

Jewish Women Speak about Jewish Matters, edited by Sarah Tikvah Kornbluth & Doron Kornbluth, is a series of essays from an Orthodox perspective. It is basically an Orthodox companion to Yentl’s Revenge in some ways, and I liked it immensely for what it was doing. I would not recommend it as a general resource, but one if you are interested in what is appealing about Orthodox life to those actually living it.

On Women and Judaism, by Blu Greenberg. I read this a while ago and reviewed it on my Tumblr blog then. I liked it and I thought it was a good view of engagement with Halacha and Orthodox traditions from within. Her viewpoints do not push the envelope very far but again if you are interested in Orthodox Judaism as a woman I think a book like this is necessary to see if you can find yourself happiness within the limits as they exist. It’s an older, so some things have changed since then.

 

The Other Category:

A place for Jewish non-religious, non-historical books.

The Jewish Journaling Book, by Janet Ruth Falon is a book I got recently because of a personal desire to start journaling and knowing I need a place to prompt myself if I start to flail or blank on starting an entry on any given day. It exists as a kind of reminder by simply sitting on my shelf, but I like the way she approached the structure and explanation of what makes it Jewish and what makes for good journaling. I have read the introduction but not through all her prompt suggestions yet.



I will add to this list over time as I acquire all my books again and gain new ones but here's what I have for now.
 

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2017-08-10 01:10 pm

LGBTA+ Person of Faith Questions

(I got the questions off Tumble ages ago and cannot remember who originally did them. I do not claim to have come up with them myself.)

This was an interesting exercise in sorting out what I felt described me well, and what details seemed most important or not.

I can still see a fair bit of the lowkey hostility I have towards both religious communities and LGBT spaces due to bad history I have with them both, but that's unsurprising given the experience I have.

It was a useful exercise and I'm glad to have gone through with it. I just wish I could find more than were easy to do from a Jewish POV.




1. Describe your LGBTA+ identity – come up with an image or symbol for it if you like.

I remember, when I was a teenager, the feeling that I couldn’t describe myself as ‘gay’ or ‘straight’ – because both of those required a known starting point, and I didn’t have one.
It took me another five or six years to realize what that mean was gender-identity issues, namely that the best word I have for it is ‘agender’ – without gender, in fact a discomfort with having to align myself with one at all.
I use she/her and ‘religious femme’ presentation because it’s simple for me: I know the social rules, it’s easy and convenient to do with the body I have, and it telegraphs a comprehensible identity in social spaces. It camouflages the question marks at the heart of it, and means I don’t have to get into a complicated conversation that is uncomfortable for me.
What is my gender? I don’t have one, need one, or want one – what you see is good enough, because the English language and society demands one be used. But that’s all it is.
As for who I’m attracted to, well, that comes and goes. I’m low enough on the range of sexual interest the discourse about asexuality has been incredibly useful to me, but I’m not sex-repulsed, I’m in a relationship, and I tend to find people attractive regardless of gender. I’ll often use bisexual as often as ace; or, more generally, just shorten the whole mess to ‘queer.’
Image-wise or symbolically, nothing’s ever really clicked. I am. ‘B’tzelem Elohim’ is the closest thing I’ve found in a while for a concept, so something in the range there.


2. Describe your faith, including an image or symbol if you like.

My faith, right now, has brought me to the process of converting to Judaism. My beliefs, my ability to conceptualize God, and my former religious identities have widely affected it but ultimately Judaism can encompass all of it.
I believe in the Jewish people. I believe something is in charge of this mess. I believe that questions and seeking are necessary for engaging with religion, and that a religion that fears them is hiding something.
I believe in wrestling with God, in yelling at him about what goes wrong, in demanding answers even if one knows they will not come. I believe that a communal tradition thousands of years old can make something out of the world whether or not there is a God to be found anyways.
I believe in humanity, in our desires and needs for something more.
I believe working together, we can find it.
And if we can’t find it, we can make it.


3. Which did you discover first: your faith or your LGBTA+ identity?

As noted above, I knew, vaguely, that I was queer sometime around late high school, which was a long time before I knew where I would find my religious home. I didn’t really explore the queer identity until I was in my twenties, much less solidly pin it down. I got it mostly sorted out around 24/25 and have been fairly content ever since. I met my long-term partner within that same time frame, so that has mostly sorted the other half too.
My faith has been rather more of a journey. I started out LDS, which has since firmly closed the door on any chance of me going back. I moved into agnostic when I left the church at sixteen, then paganism also at 22, and, finally, am coming to Judaism now.


4. Where are you in your faith journey?
Your journey as an LGBTA+ person?


In my faith journey, well, I’m due to start the ‘Conversion’ classes in September, and thus any mikveh date won’t be until Spring – but I am very certain of what, and how I want this to happen now. I haven’t found any reason to turn my back on Judaism in the past two years, and I’m very pleased by that.
As a Queer person, I feel like my questions there are all settled. I have nothing really bothering me right now. The biggest challenges that have come up recently was reconciling if I felt okay being a “Mum” to children we might have, a problem that can be tidily resolved by just having the kids call me “Ima” – because it’s the word that’s loaded, not the behavior after all.


5. How has your gender and/or orientation impacted your faith life negatively? What about positively?

I am grateful, in some ways, that because of the recent ruling by the LDS church that children of same-sex partnered parents cannot be baptized until 18 and estranged, that that door is very firmly closed to me now.
I’m not realistically afraid that I might go back, but some part of me keeps thinking that because of all the little signs of progress that I should just accept and believe that it’s “not that bad” and I can suck it up. With all the cultural bullshit on Tumblr about appropriation and not stepping outside your ‘lane’, it gets into your head sometimes about ‘well what is your Good Reason™ to not stick it out where you started?
Well, here’s mine.
On the other hand – and I’m not sure again which of these is the ‘positive’ and which is the ‘negative’ – but I am aware that I will be limited what congregations I can go to because of my on-going relationship being read as queer. To be frank, though, it’s more of an obstacle that my partner is non-Jewish than appears to be the same gender as me.


6. Post a photograph, a poem, a passage of your holy book, or other art that relates to your identity as an LGBTA+ person of faith.

Twilight People Prayer

“As the sun sinks and the colors of the day turn, we offer a blessing for the twilight,
for twilight is neither day nor night, but in-between.
We are all twilight people. We can never be fully labeled or defined.
We are many identities and loves, many genders and none. We are in between roles, at the intersection of histories, or between place and place.
We are crisscrossed paths of memory and destination, streaks of light swirled together. We are neither day nor night.
We are both, neither, and all.
May the sacred in-between of this evening suspend our certainties, soften our judgments, and
widen our vision.
May this in-between light illuminate our way to the God who transcends all categories and definitions.
May the in-between people who have come to pray be lifted up into this twilight.
We cannot always define; we can always say a blessing.
Blessed are You, God of all,
who brings on the twilight.”
Rabbi Reuben Zellman, TransTorah.org


7. How have people of your faith reacted to your gender/orientation?
How have people in the LGBTA+ community reacted to your faith?


I’ve yet to run into anyone at my congregation who has any issue with the matter, but to be fair I am very private about my faith and about my orientation and gender, so often it rarely comes up. I’m a great deal more anxious at the thought of bringing up my faith in LGBT spaces than I am bringing up my partner in Jewish ones, though, at least assuming I know what Jewish space I’m in at any given time.
I’m well aware that Judaism is not perfect about LGBT issues – see the Chief Rabbi of Jerusalem attempting to leverage the perceived heterosexuality of history against Jerusalem’s Pride Parade – but, for the most part, it’s much easier to find spaces that you can know are safe within Jewish communities than you can find LGBT communities that can engage with Judaism safely.


8. Do you participate in any communities or groups that celebrate both your faith and your LGBTA+ identity?
If not, would you want to?


I would be relatively interested in a Jewish LGBT group, but honestly, I’ve given up on the LGBT community a long time ago. It was exhausting, and a space in which LGBT identities were treated as much more defining of the people who hold them than is true for me.
I grew up knowing my gender was ‘odd’ and a mismatch for who I am, but I also wasn’t deeply invested in finding out why. As an adult, it’s anyone’s guess if the mismatch is a case of my autism, my social anxiety, biology, socialization or what-have-you – and ultimately it truly doesn’t matter to me.
I’ve found a presentation that suits me, one that unfortunately makes me look like a person of faith who is much more conservative than I am. That, too, makes me anxious about engaging in ANY LGBT spaces because I know I will potentially make people there uncomfortable as they try to navigate if I’m safe or not.
I still remember how uncomfortable I was to be in a Pride room with someone openly wearing a large Christian cross, before I was converting to Judaism but after I’d left my first religion and moved into being pagan. It was not all that okay for me. I don’t want to do that to someone else, but G-d knows if I’ll figure out a queer presentation that works.


9. What’s the biggest obstacle you face as an LGBTA+ person of faith?

I think the biggest obstacle, in my personal life, is how used to facing hostility towards visible faith practices in LGBT spaces, and how much Christianity still pings me as bad when I am in generally “faith-based” LGBT spaces. Christian theology is still hard for me to cope with, so it’s been a struggle to find a way to be okay around it.
Add on top of that the low-key antisemitism the Left is marinating in, and it feels like my options for integrating my orientation and my faith will all have to happen in the spaces built around my faith.


10. What prayers, holy words, songs, ideas, etc. comfort you when people try to tell you your identities are incompatible?

I think I take the most comfort in knowing that I belong to a tradition with a vast and welcoming tradition of challenging the norm within its own community. The book Wrestling with God and Men is an old, and well-loved book on how to integrate homosexuality with Judaism and one recommended to so many.
The mere concept ‘B’tzelem Elohim’ is one I’ve seen used so many ways – “Made in the image of God.” This idea, even when I was Christian, is one that’s long been close to my heart because, if G-d made all things, why are you so very certain that what I experience about myself is NOT G-d’s plan?
What makes you a greater authority on who I should be than G-d?
The first Jewish service I went to, the Rabbi asked the congregation “Is G-d moral because he makes moral laws?” and the answers ranged from “Well probably?” to “No, of course not.”
And none of them were considered wrong.


11. What goals do you have for yourself?

I want to make religious practice a regular feature in my life. I want to have a Jewish wedding with my partner, to make it formal and give us something to display. I want to be active in my community. If I can find a Jewish, or quality interfaith LGBT community, I want to belong to that too.
It will be a lot of work, given my limitations, but those are all the things I want to make of my life as time goes forward. Having religious community is something I’m more familiar with than having an LGBT community, but I don’t want to feel like I have to segregate them from each other for my safety.


12. What would you like to say to people who try to put you down about your identity?

I think I would say that having beliefs in something is human, and seeking it – and a community of like-minded people – is just something we need. Whatever it is that best suits someone as a ‘like-minded community’ is going to vary, and that doesn’t make anyone better or worse on the question of how ‘real’ the belief is to others.
Similarly, not every kind of faith or belief requires someone to give up being LGBT. It doesn’t presume you must adhere to the norm, because not every community has that as a norm. There are greater and lesser degrees of acceptance, and I hope that every LGBT person who wants to believe can find a community that manages that without causing them harm.
This isn’t an either/or choice and I’m happy with the balance I have. I wish more people could be.


13. What would you like to say to other LGBTA+ people of faith who are struggling right now, or to your younger self?

I think to my younger self, I’d just say “be patient” and “you’re not broken, you really are just surrounded by assholes.”
I’d say, to others, that no you don’t have to put up with a faith that tells you you’re wrong, you’re broken, if you just prayed more or got married it’d go away. I’d say that you can have both. It’s not an either-or thing. You just might have to find another community, another faith – or another LGBT group that will allow you to have your beliefs too.
Telling someone how they should be is not okay. Constantly repeating that someone’s faith or someone’s orientation or gender is wrong is cruel and unfair. Just because it’s the best you have right now, doesn’t mean it’s the best that’s out there.
Be patient. You’re not broken, you may just be surrounded by assholes right now.
You can move on.


14. What makes you proud to be an LGBTA+ person of faith?

I’m not sure ‘proud’ is a word I’d use to describe my feelings towards being a queer person of faith. I’m just being what makes me most comfortable. I fell back into religion while negotiating who I am, and where I felt most comfortable, and what happened to fit well was Judaism. My LGBT identity was part of the process, but not a vital one. It’s something that had to be accounted for within my faith, but it wasn’t a big deal.
I’m not a big deal. I’m existing. I shouldn’t have to defend that to others.
I have a right to my faith. I have a right to my queer identity.
That’s all.

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2017-04-05 04:33 pm

"On Women and Judaism" by Blu Greenberg

(I know I know I've mostly forgotten this space exists. Oops.)

ANYWAYS I finished another Jewish book finally so I'm gonna go ahead and try and review it decently here.

It was, overall, a very good read. Published in 1981, this is of course abundantly obvious in the content of the book. Given that my study of both historical feminism and Jewish cultural developments is poor, I can’t comment on how well it reflects these movements at the time, but based on what little I know I expect it impacts the content in many ways.

The book is organized by chapters that talk about the feminist movement, the author’s journey to becoming a feminist, and then detailed arguments on halakhic precedents for ways to make Orthodox Judaism more inclusive and egalitarian. These address things like coming of age ceremonies, women and prayer, family purity laws (which I’ve discussed elsewhere,) divorce and agunah, abortion, and looking towards a Jewish future.

The author is honest about the fact that she is writing about her opinions, experiences, and her sincere desire to reconcile feminism and Jewish law. In some ways it reads like a personal journal in which she’s talking herself through the arguments as much as addressing an audience. From what I’ve learned of Jewish theory and learning, it’s almost exactly that: a great deal of ground covered to establish the problem, the existing precedent, and then knitting those into several options for solutions without attempting to specify which one is “best.”

In this, it’s an incredibly useful book that I can see myself referring to again and again in spite of its age. I’d be very curious to look into the different branches of Judaism to see whether some of her conclusions have since been implemented. Her suggestions are almost entirely ones I find little fault in, which is a little surprising for reasons I’ll mention later. At one point, discussing abortion, she suggests that a helpful innovation would be “to support research on earlier and self-implemented methods of pregnancy detection […] the morning-after detection and antidote kit” - which sounds to me like it’s fulfilled in part by the advent of Plan B as a pill.

Other conclusions she draws tend to be things like changing women’s exclusion from prayer obligations to apply only during the years one has young children (and to apply to men or women in those instances,) and to allowing women to deliver a get to a court themselves to prevent the abuse of leaving a woman agunah.

The fact that the book is mostly opinions leads directly into my main issue with her writing: she is very pointedly “pro-family,” talking about the “plague of divorce” and the “tragedy” that is women not marrying or having children or having enough children. I suspect, in part, this comes from the feminism of her time combined with her social background - of which she is honest about the influence of, which mitigates her opinions slightly as you can anticipate them in most cases.

However, if you have problems with books that push the narrative of traditional family, gender roles, and procreation as an obligation, this will make it an uncomfortable book to read. While she comes to good egalitarian conclusions in every case and admits that the social structures she so admires will only persist if social services support them (ie child care options must be provided for families to have more children comfortably) she spends a great deal of time defending their value while she gets there. At times, it reads like many of the conservative deliberate misunderstandings of feminism are at play.

Ironically, her ‘getting there’ includes undermining her own insistence that the genders have distinctive roles and values, which is part of what makes her opinions less frustrating to read. If you take the book as one half of a conversation, it reads very well as food for the thought and provides a great deal of information one might not otherwise have without the same kind of “Yeshiva girl” education she grew up with.

(For those who need to avoid certain triggers in books, her stance on abortion includes both a discussion of genetic disorders and her belief that the Jewish community “must” reproduce to replace population loss to the shoah. While most of this occurs in that particular chapter, it also comes up in the introduction and the conclusion in brief.)
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2016-11-21 03:31 pm

Reading "A Book of Life" by Michael Strassfeld

On my Tumblr, I'd posted that I was starting to read this book and would share my thoughts on it so here goes.

The Introduction:

I can’t say I’m super thrilled,even if it’s actually exactly what I hoped it would be.

I think I just have something against people who are super excited by Buddhist philosophies after my New Age/Pagan years. (I have nothing against Buddhism in general, but it’s in the same category as Christianity for me in terms of just how useful the ideas are for my personal spirituality - which is to say, ranging from useless to potentially harmful, and mostly just impossible for me to follow.)

I was less than thrilled by his account of having been inspired by a Buddhist-themed Rabbi retreat where they didn’t speak for three days and cycled walking and sitting meditation for the entirety of it. I’m glad he found something that worked for him, but it didn’t fill me with joy at the prospect of the rest of the book. However, I got the book for ideas, not in the hopes of agreeing with it completely, so that’s not enough for me to write it off.

The rest of the ideas in the introduction were pretty nice. I really enjoy the story of what is enough for a miracle in which the story is that there is a place in the forest, a fire to light, the words to say and over the years the specifics are lost but the place and the words remain, or the words remain, or the memory that there was a place and the words and the fire – any of that is enough. It’s helpful for me especially when while I may know what should be done I’m not always able to do it. That knowing and respecting that is enough to be heard.

I can appreciate also the idea that people often begin to see the practice of religion as an act of theatre with nothing ever new to see. To be fair, I believe for many people this is often true. If you’re not actually engaged with the religion, the movements of it can become utterly meaningless. It’s why I left my first religion, and why I often struggled as a pagan. I knew theoretically what was supposed to be done, but I couldn’t access the reasons why and it often gave me nothing new. After the intellectual exercise ended, I didn’t see the point in staying.

(I’m still slightly afraid that this might happen with Judaism, but logically I know there’s several reasons why it won’t go the same way – both for the greater volume of accessible materials, and for the increased access to social spaces and real-world engagements that don’t make me gag like generic pagan ones do.)

Also helpful is the discussion he goes into about the difference between how spirituality is commonly understood versus how he’s working with it in his book. Rather than dividing religion from spirituality in the sense of impersonal vs personal beliefs and actions, he handles it in the sense that spirituality is one’s connection to God within your religion and, also, while he doesn’t state it explicitly, he does implicitly state that it includes your connection to God within the material world in the sense that marching for Civil Rights protests can be “praying with your feet.” That, to me, is a connection to God in material world concerns and very relevant right now isn’t it?

He also discusses Halakah as a word that puts “tradition” in the context of “the way” or “to go” as the root of the word, and Kavanah as “intention.” Obviously his interpretation of kavanah comes from his Buddhist tendencies but I’m interested to see where he takes it.

Some of might be helpful, some not but if nothing else learning what ideas I disagree with and why will be helpful in the end.